Justice League Unlmited "Grudge Match" Review (Spoilers)

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What I look like

Style's entry on posting a picture of himself made me think. I am WAAAAYY too self-conscious of my weight to post a picture of myself (although I've lost a lot I refuse to do so until I've lost a great deal more) but I CAN describe myself or at least the way I see myself. I'm actually not that bad-looking when I'm thinner but when I'm over-weight I look weird.

My skin is peach colored. My face, even though it is round has an angular look to it because I have an underbite. Tardive Diskonesia from my meds unhinged my jaw and made it permanantly jut out although you can't really notice it when I'm fat. When I'm thinner it just looks like I have a big chin.

My hair is brown and a little bit weird. When I grew out my hair ten years ago it turned curly, even after I cut it off. When I had my brain surgery four years ago it became straighter again. It is very think and full (I am not bald in the least) and is alternately really short (buzz cut) or like a frizzy afro (right before my bi-annual haircut). I had a buzz-cut last week.

I am clean-shaven. I have a scar on my nose and on my right eyebrow from when I smashed my face through a window. The nose scar is kind of like a bump but the eyebrow scar actually looks kind of cool. My eyebrows are kind of like Lou Ferrigno's.

I have straight teeth although because of my jaw my smile is really awful looking. I look like Jack Nicholson's Joker when I smile and am kind of weird looking.

My body type is fat. I weigh around three hundred pounds even though I HAVE lost a lot of weight. Although I look much thinner than I did a year ago I am still pretty fat. This doesn't bother me SO much because I am losing the weight steadily which means that there is a much better chance of me not regaining it as opposed to losing it too fast.

My nicest feature is my eyes. My eyebrows are a little big (although NOT bushy) but my eyes are very pretty. They are green and blue and brown with flecks of gold in the center and change colors when I wear something different (although I usually don't).

I dress Asperger's chiche which is basically a T-shirt and sweat pants (my skin is REALLY sensitive). Mt arms are a bit hairy (I'm self-conscious about that) and I'm kind of roly-poly. I look weird when my hair is really short, but I like only having to go to the barber twice a year.

I'm trying to make peace with my appearance and losing weight has not only made me feel better about myself, but it's much easier to get around. I FEEL healthier and that's cool. I used to be much thinner and I hope to be that way again, but right now I am just happy to be moving in that direction.

My best friend just joined live-journal

Candihead is nice even though she sometimes ignores me. Hopefully with her on-line I'll be able to talk to her more. If anyone would permit me to tell her to friend you I'd appreciate it. She's toilet-trained so I wouldn't worry too much.

My sister had a miscarriage

I am so sad right now. I don't know what I'll say to her when I talk to her next. I don't know what to say. I am so sad that the niece I was going to have died.

I'm mad at God right now but I really hope my neice is in Heaven at the same time. I want to help my sister but I don't feel like I ever know what I'm talking about. I love my sister. I'd pray for her but I am mad at God. I don't understand why these things happen. This is probably the worst thing that has ever happened to my sister. I love my sister very much and she did not deserve this to happen.

I wish my sister will feel all right but I know why she can't. I feel really bad too but I really want to be able to make it better for her.

Please, no sympathy. I just really need advice on how to help her. This isn't about me, it's about her.