Still waking up with a knot in my stomach.

You know what though? That's good. It means I'm not accepting this or rolling over. The fact that I don't feel like going on with my life as normal is probably the healthiest reaction I can have at this point.

Accepting this is a sign of giving up and futility. That's not all right for me.

But I'm not okay and I'm not going to be okay. And that's for the best right now.