I think I'm going insane.

I'm just so angry all the time and it hurts. I hate feeling angry and I'm tired of fighting. I'm having a hard time thinking straight. I'm lashing out at people I care about. I've pretty much given up on the idea that my mind will ever be at peace. I'm frightened and lonely and I don't think there is anyone I could talk to about it. No-one would understand.

Speaking of anger my latest forum meltdown at AFI was because of some jerk blaming the Aurora shooting victims for not carrying guns in the theater. I am really ashamed of my response (if requested I will go into the situation in more detail) and think the PM I responded with was even worse than the one I was received at Toon Zone from Lord Dalek. That isn't company I'm proud of keeping. I'm just SO tired of people blaming victims of gun violence by saying THEY would have been manly enough to handle the situation. It is just SO coldblooded a thing to say especially the day of the shooting.

I still can't help feeling people on my lj are mad at me too. I don't blame you guys. I suck.