God, I'm SO sick of my mental illness

It's starting to effect my behavior online. I've always been known to play the victim but I probably wouldn't be such a jerk if my brain acted normally. I am just so angry right now. I seriously doubt I will ever return to Toon Zone again. I can't even look at it anymore. And the incident happened weeks ago. What kind of nut am I to get "flashbacks" from a flame war? I need serious therapy. I'm such a moron.

All that said, the people I was arguing with are even worse than I am. I may have a crummy way of expressing my opinions but at least they aren't wrong.

Edit: This has just gone from "not wanting to talk about it" to "probably needing to talk about it". My only problem with talking about it is that it will probably turn into a rant on my part and I hate those and myself whenever I do that. If enough people think I should, I'll go into details. But I'll probably ask other people's opinions about what I should have done so be prepared to give advice.