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I don't know whether to laugh or cry....
Jun. 9th, 2007 09:11 pmMaybe both?
Update: Link fixed:
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2007/6/9/105322/6744
Update 2: This Anti Harry Potter lunatic isn't helping. Great. Now I support terrorism and am personally responsible for the Virginia Tech shootings.
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2007/6/10/141546/194
This isn't the religion I grew up with. My Church was never filled with this much hatred and nonsense. I have been feeling a huge void inside myself for the past couple of years (the internet has NOT helped) and I keep wondering why I believe the things I do. Is it magical thinking on my part? Because even if I know in my gut that there may not be a God (or even probably not) I can't stop believing in Him/ Her.
Is this what faith is? Just indoctrination repeated enough that no amount of common sense can sway you into realizing the obvious? I mean, I have no love for the Kool Aid drinkers who still are delusional enough to support Bush but isn't me believing this the exact same thing?
I am extremely grateful for the few progressive Christian Voices out there like Street Prophets' Paster Dan. It's easier for me to believe in Jesus and God if there are other people who do know that the real importance of Chrisitianity isn't about who is a sinner and who is going to Hell but about making the world the best place it can possibly be while we're here and help others who are suffering. Heck, I'd be a Christian solely for that idea even if I KNEW that there wasn't a God. But that isn't what drives Christians nowadays and I'm close to wanting to have nothing more to do with them.
I miss my pastor. He retired last year and I haven't been to Church since (even though I rarely went anymore anyways). My spirituality group at my program ended a few months ago too so I don't have any real world connections to deal with my faith. Maybe I could talk to my therapist about it but she's on vacation right now.
I feel so spiritually empty and deadened right now and I don't know what to do about it.
Update: Link fixed:
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2007/6/9/105322/6744
Update 2: This Anti Harry Potter lunatic isn't helping. Great. Now I support terrorism and am personally responsible for the Virginia Tech shootings.
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2007/6/10/141546/194
This isn't the religion I grew up with. My Church was never filled with this much hatred and nonsense. I have been feeling a huge void inside myself for the past couple of years (the internet has NOT helped) and I keep wondering why I believe the things I do. Is it magical thinking on my part? Because even if I know in my gut that there may not be a God (or even probably not) I can't stop believing in Him/ Her.
Is this what faith is? Just indoctrination repeated enough that no amount of common sense can sway you into realizing the obvious? I mean, I have no love for the Kool Aid drinkers who still are delusional enough to support Bush but isn't me believing this the exact same thing?
I am extremely grateful for the few progressive Christian Voices out there like Street Prophets' Paster Dan. It's easier for me to believe in Jesus and God if there are other people who do know that the real importance of Chrisitianity isn't about who is a sinner and who is going to Hell but about making the world the best place it can possibly be while we're here and help others who are suffering. Heck, I'd be a Christian solely for that idea even if I KNEW that there wasn't a God. But that isn't what drives Christians nowadays and I'm close to wanting to have nothing more to do with them.
I miss my pastor. He retired last year and I haven't been to Church since (even though I rarely went anymore anyways). My spirituality group at my program ended a few months ago too so I don't have any real world connections to deal with my faith. Maybe I could talk to my therapist about it but she's on vacation right now.
I feel so spiritually empty and deadened right now and I don't know what to do about it.
